Alejandre DeAnorim
“Impulso Anna, impulso!” The mid-wife urged her on.
“Seu doloroso! Me lata nao!” She screamed back. Couldn’t she understand? It hurt too much to push any more!
“Tu obrigacao!”
“NO! NO MAIS!”
“O bebe, seu vinda! Impulso!”
“AHHH!” She screamed. She screamed harder than she had ever screamed. She screamed, and she pushed. Every last ounce of her strength, every last shred of her willpower, she poured into screaming and pushing. She screamed and pushed until her throat was raw and her muscles turned to water. Then she screamed and pushed some more. The light of the nearby lamp dazzled her eyes, a kaleidoscope of colors and shapes so bright it hurt her eyes to look at it. A mouse skirted across the room and out the open door, frightened by the noise. Outside the open window, the stars twinkled in the sky, and the New Moon hung invisible among them. It’s uncanny the attention to detail one receives when under extreme duress, blocking out the pain and the fear. Then suddenly it all came crashing back onto her, drowning her like an ocean wave.
Yet even through that indescribable agony, she soon realized she was no longer screaming alone. A new voice had joined with hers, and their screams twined together in a thundering chorus sailing out into the night. For a moment it all faded away again, and she was on a cloud, in a place of infinite bliss looking down on the world as an angel might, looking down on her village, her house, her body, with the sort of blissful passivity enjoyed only by the divine.
Then suddenly the world rushed back to her, her breath deserted her, and her body failed her. She fell back limply, completely drained.
“Seu em menino!” The midwife exclaimed. Good, Ben wanted a boy. A strong young boy to carry on his craft. He would be so happy.
She lifted her head wearily as the other woman placed the still whimpering babe into her arms. He was bright red wrapped in blue swaddling. She smiled at him, his eyes not yet open, his little hands and feet writhing around in this newfound space, this bright and terrifying world he had been born into in a moment of blood and pain.
“Alejandre…” she said, then fell back into exhausted sleep.